JBoogie

It’s the fact that so much was already wrong. We were hanging onto an obvious facade of joy; now the curtain’s pulled, and hell has broken loose.

Prolonged post on people.

Fuck people.

Fuck how people superficially judge whatever passes our eyes.

Fuck how people have to be right.

Fuck how people decide to be blatantly ignorant.

Fuck how people act like they understand.

And fuck how people can respect themselves beyond all of that.

Actually, how can you even pretend to respect yourself when you can’t respect others?

Well then, I got into college.

I guess sometimes, I just fool around too much.

WHATEVER THO

Relaxation mode. Senioritis kicking in. Fuck school.

I don’t know what I’m looking for anymore. Math, Literature, baking, poker, rap…words for passions that hide and reveal themselves whenever they desire taunt me and prod me and pinch me. I can’t seem to choose.

I was angry about it earlier, but I guess it’s alright. Wandering semi-aimlessly isn’t my idea of a great life, but that’s what undergrad is for, right? Then, I can make up my mind. Then, I can choose one, or choose them all. There’s just one more stretch until it’s all over, until friends split ways, until lovers release hands, until the new frontier opens up.

And I’m ready. (Okay maybe not really)

(On a darker note, my English class is pushing me to the brink of sanity and composure. She needs to assign us something meaningful.)

they say im wastin my time, sayin’ you’ll never be mine

spittin lines aint shit if all they do is rhyme

will i find, peace of mind, in a mind like yours?

yours truly tho, and of that i’m sure

i can make empty promises too

but expenses are hefty if i can’t live to them full-y

buy you bags and rings, even get you flashy ass jewel-ry

but know what im lookin’ for is just you - please be true to me

the last girl i had made me put on my guard (emotional security)

lookin at you tho, my barriers fall without hesitance

your presence in a present in this evident entanglement

trapping me in a cage, and your love is the key

can’t believe, never knew your beauty would instill these butterflies in me

you can be, the earth, and i could be the moon

and for what, it’s worth, my life will revolve around you

used to just play around, didn’t wanna get leashed

but now it’s lost then found, if your love’s a prison i don’t wanna be free

so take my hand…and i’ll take yours

together we’ll find, love isnt the cure—it’s more 

a window, a door, shut the past, a future to look toward

new beginnings

new horizons

to see your eyes brighten, love heighten—risin’

reach a limit even calculus won’t be derivin’

reach the zenith—no, even the peak can’t define our lovin’